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This morning i am just thinking to myself, its been 3 months plus since i started working. And though i have settled down, getting used to my working environment, i am not as irritating compared to the first 2 weeks when i first started. I have a few people i can talk to... i dont hate work anymore. BUT! (in life there is alot of but because and why) i really still cant stand waking up at 730am, head to work, leave at 6pm, go home, eat, watch mobtv and sleep. I really just cant stand this lifestyle, its just way too disgusting.
AHHHH....depression again!
boooo..i am having such a rough and tough day at work today. Everyone and everything is making things difficult for me. I feel like killing someone now. Felt so bad, throw tantrum on sj just now during lunch cause i am simply so pissed at work plus i couldnt sleep well for the past 2 nights, making me have difficulty waking up in the morning to a mad rush for time.
fml man seriously.
OH GODD, SO TIRED. i think i walked like 72km today and my legs are really breaking. I need to do some foot spa for myself tomorrow.
Met loo and the bfs for lunch, shopped around city link mall and marina, went to sign my employment letter, met loo again to shop at bugis, met chris at farrer park for dinner, chilled at chris's place, met bf and merv for la kopi, cabbed home and i just spent the last 1hr40mins of my life trying clothes and planning outfits for work, and yes i have enough only to last me 17days.
Done with it, and realised, omggggggg tomorrow is thursday! AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! alot of issues in my head now.
1. can i perform?
2. i dont know why but somehow i am scared of the background check. hahaha
3. am i able to live up to people's expectations of me?
to sum it all up, I AM JUST SO NOT MENTALLY PREPARED. ok, gotta stop whining about it, suck it up and just do it. I CAN DO THIS.